i need a cure. please ill do anything to get it back to make it full again, this is gonna lead me to depression soon enough

nature fucking hates me. no one dares say anything bad about me, i am doomed. my future my everything is doomed because of the way i am progressing to look like now. i wanna cut myself and just go suicidal

i want to be the next Anastasia Steele. to have my Christian Grey and awfully amazing sex